Saturday, December 31, 2011

And Another One Draws To A Close...



2011 was sort of a big year for me.

1.) In February, I finally decided to follow my dreams and focus on becoming a published author, and I changed my major in college (for the fifth time) to the one I TRULY wanted to pursue: Creative Writing.

2.) In March, I had my first experience with critique partners (there are some MEAN people out there. But I found my writing soul mate after many trial and error critiques. Here's looking at you, Amy!). And thank you, thank you, Natalie Parker, who was gentle but tough, and helped me fix all kinds of things this year. But I also realized that my novel kinda sucked, thanks to those mean people. So thank you mean girl who told me that "people don't talk in contractions". You were... right about some things.

3.) I then spent April through September re-writing my novel for the fourth time.

4.) On September 18th,  I finished my first full-length novel. 

5.) From September to October, I edited my first full-length novel.

6.) On October 4th, I freaking submitted my first full-length novel to agents.

7.) In October and November, I got TWO manuscript requests (with one rejection and still waiting for a response on the other)

8.) January-December, I LEARNED SO MUCH ABOUT THE PUBLISHING BUSINESS!  And I definitely learned things about myself as a writer along the way. For example, I write my best scenes when there's good music playing in my ears. Or that I can only plot with a paper and pen and can only write scenes by typing. Or that I CANNOT write on the couch (the words REFUSE to come to me there for some reason. Embarrassingly, I've written my best stuff in the bathtub)

So, I must say, 2011 was a very, very productive year for me. I learned that rejection is inevitable, and that it HURTS. I learned writing a novel with a beginning, middle, end, and all the stuff in between is HARD. But in 2011, I learned that I CAN write a novel, and I plan to do it again and again and again.

 I want to thank Jackson Pearce, Maggie Stiefvater, and Mary Kole for the infinite amounts of knowledge on their blogs!!!

And as for 2012??????? I have HUGE plans. :-D

What about you?

Sunday, December 11, 2011

The New Pain Scale

I usually use my blog to post about my writing-related adventures, but there is something in my life that takes up a good part of my day every day lately - KIDNEY STONES.

Kidney stones are tiny-little-demon-filled-clusters-made-with-spikes-of-doom and I would wish them on no one. Except maybe Hitler. And the spider that lives in my house and keeps cleverly disappearing before I can smash it.

But kidney stones seem to just LOVE living in my right kidney. They love to reproduce and call all their friends and say, "HEY THIS GIRL HAS A ROCKING KIDNEY, COME ON OVER AND PAR-TAY WITH US!"


(Yes, the kidney stones are drinking out of red Solo cups)


 Only... I don't like having parties in my kidney. It kinda hurts.  But nonetheless, no matter what doctor-given tips I religiously follow, they keep fracking appearing inside my kidney.


So during my many trips to the emergency room in the past two years (plus 11 get-rid-of-the-giant-kidney-stone-procedures in the operating room), I have paid thousands of dollars to a certain hospital and kick-ass urologist, and I feel that I have the right to illicit one small piece of advice to all the hospitals in America:

The little smiley/frowny face charts that hang on your walls for the purpose of helping the patient to diagnose his or her pain scale is BOGUS. No one looks like this when they come to the hospital for extreme pain (as your #10 on your poster suggests):


(# 6 looks like he just ate some peanut butter)


So if you ever find yourself in the ER for something like a kidney stone, when the nurse asks you to rate your pain from one to ten-- and you want to yell that it feels like tiny monsters are trying to eat their way out of your body and that it's much worse than a FRACKING TEN-- you should pull out this handy little pain chart and desperately point to the last one:







Because if something the size of a peanut M&M is trying to force its way through a tube the size of a coffee stirrer, you will most likely be clawing out your eyeballs by the time you get to said nurse. Or rolling around on the germ-ridden hospital floor, bargaining with God in a language you didn't even know you spoke. Then you should do that hospital a favor and give the nurse your handy little pain chart so that the next patient can accurately diagnose their pain level. 

And then YOU have just saved the world! (or... you know... maybe not. But it's worth a try.) Hopefully you won't ever have a need for this pain chart ((unless your kidney is a breeding ground like mine is)) Either way, print it and put it in your wallet, right next to your insurance card!

You're Welcome.




Saturday, November 5, 2011

Rejection + Query Help!!!



Since I've only gotten answers from half of the agents I've queried, I feel like I may be writing this post prematurely. But I am a sensitive soul. When I love something, I LOOOVVVVE IT. When something makes me sad, I cry over things like toilet paper commercials for days. ("The baby bear has pieces of toilet paper stuck to his butt? POOR BABY BEAR HOW SAD!!!!" *wail*) When something makes me mad, I'm all, *STEFANIE SMASH ALL THE THINGS!!!*.

So after getting 10+ rejection letters from agents, I was surprised to find a brand new emotion that I'd never experienced before: crazy-pants-off-the-rocker-self-- instead of just my normal, sad-burrowing into-my-blankets-and-crying-over-toilet-paper-commercials-self.



You know how you always laugh at the crazy people on American Idol who can't carry a tune in a bucket, and then go all "Y'all gon' be sorry! YOU'LL SEE!" on the judges? Well laugh now, BUT I KNOW HOW THEY FEEL. After re-reading WICKED ILLUSIONS last night, I fell in love all over again with my two main characters. I LOVE THESE FICTIONAL PEOPLE, Y'ALL. I love the story, I love the setting, I love the plot-- I want to tape it to my chest and hug it forever. (Okay, maybe that's a little extreme, but ya know, this thing is my BABY). So when I received another rejection letter this morning, I went full blown American Idol crazy on my iPhone.

"You just don't know what you're missing, agent! You will be sorry that you didn't want to read this manuscript, agent! You just lost out on LOVE, agent! YOU'LL SEE! I'LL BE GREAT!"

(And no I didn't tell said agent these things, because I'm not actually insane. Well, I don't know, maybe yelling at my iPhone makes me a little insane).

After realizing how loopy I sounded, I took a step back and gently laid my iPhone down, apologized to it, then went and made blueberry muffins to make me feel better. This whole querying thing has made lose my ability to see the bigger picture. I want the world to love Lilly and Noah so badly that I am forgetting that they don't know them like I do. It's obvious that my query letter is not working the magic it should, since I've only gotten 1 request (that I'm still waiting for a response from).

So. Ahem. I have gathered the courage to ask a favor from you.

*gives you virtual blueberry muffins*. Will you read my query letter and tell me how it could be better?

I've had several people look over it already, but I figure that if you are reading this, you are most likely a writer/aspiring author like myself, and could give me fresh perspective. The other day, I entered a query contest with agent Suzie Townsend, where she is going to respond to each of them personally, telling the writer why she didn't want to request more material (unless, of course, she DOES request more material). I haven't heard back from her yet, seeing as how she received over 600 entries (O_O), but I would love to get as much feedback as I can.

(And yes, I've moved onto writing a new manuscript in case this one doesn't work out. That's what everyone always suggests for taking my mind off querying)

 So anyway. Here is my query. Tear it apart! Be ruthless! (I have my blueberry muffins, so The Sanity is in tact. I promise I won't go American Idol crazy-pants on you. Hee hee)




Dear (Insert Agent):

Death is a run of the mill thing for sixteen-year-old Lilly Elliott. The town that she grew up in is more than just a little strange: its residents are trapped there. No one is allowed to move away from Ironbrook, Tennessee without the consequence of death. But that’s not all— milk spoils before its expiration date and plants wither for no reason. And most unexplained, at least one person dies every month at the hands of the suffocating black fog that no one can stop.

Lilly is accustomed to the weird things that happen in Ironbrook, though she longs to live somewhere normal. But when she accidentally brings a dead animal back to life, Things. Just. Get. Weirder. When a classmate reveals the truth to Lilly about who she is and what they both can do, Lilly is sucked into the world that goes on behind closed doors in Ironbrook— and things are never safe there. Lilly discovers that she has an ability that has been long buried deep inside of her— she can drain the life out of humans and keep it for herself, giving her the ability to live forever. But her loved ones—including the mysterious boy that keeps popping up in her dreams—are in danger. Will she be able to save them before their lives are stolen? And most importantly, will she be able to save herself… from herself?

WICKED ILLUSIONS is a story that explores the themes of family allegiance and the power of choice with splashes of magical realism, aimed towards a young adult audience. I think that WICKED ILLUSIONS is specifically different from most YA novels today because it touches upon the addiction of knowing that you are doing something wrong, but not knowing how to stop— which is something many teens face on a daily basis. WICKED ILLUSIONS will appeal to readers who've enjoyed BEAUTIFUL CREATURES and IMAGINARY GIRLS, and it is complete at 65,000 words.

I am currently working to obtain my bachelor’s degree in English with a concentration in Creative Writing from the (insert my university here. No offense, but the internet has too many stalkers).

On a personal note, I have read several books by authors that you represent, such as (insert respective books I've read here), and I thought my manuscript would fit neatly into the realm of your literary taste.

Per your submission guidelines, I have included the first (insert # here) pages below, and would be delighted to send you the full manuscript upon request. This is a simultaneous submission. I appreciate you taking the time to consider my work.

Sincerely,
Stefanie Jones




*Update 12/02/11-- Thanks to my wonderful critique partner, I rewrote my query letter AH-GAIN-- and so far, I've gotten another full manuscript request! 

Monday, October 31, 2011

RE: What Query Letters Do To Your Face




It's Halloween! So I decided to do a blog post on the thing that currently scares me most-- hold onto your panties, it's a doozy!!!-- my career. I know what your thinking: "Is this chick bonkers? The thing that scares her most is her CA- REER?" *waits while you roll your eyes*. But alas, it's true! It's not exactly my "career" that scares me-- it's the not knowing if I will be able to MAKE this dream my career. My actual current career is college student/bank teller, and I am green-in-the-face sick of both. ME WANTS TO BE A REEL RITER. And who holds my fate in their hands (or inbox, rather)??? The 50 literary agents that I've queried.

A few weeks ago, I sent my first query letters. My original plan was to send it out to my top 5 agents and wait the agonizing 6-8 weeks for a response. But then I started to have my normal little thoughts of self doubt. Me: "WHY would any of these agents want to represent ME? They represent people like Maggie Stiefvater and Veronica Roth and Suzanne Collins. WHAT was I thinking???" And that combined with me being the type of person who has-no-patience-and-wants-everything-right-now decided to send out more letters. I started with 20. Then 30. Now my count is at 50. That sounds pathetic, right? *is ashamed of my impatience*. So far, I've gotten 9 rejection letters and I'm waiting to hear back from 6 other agents who graciously answer every query letter. The rest only contact you if they want to see more material. WHAT KIND OF TORTURE IS THIS????? It's pretty close to the ancient Chinese torture method of tying somebody to the ground and letting bamboo grow through his or her body. (A nice visual for your Halloween pleasure).

After I got my first rejection letter, I shrugged it off. It was no big deal, right? There were plenty more chances for me to get requests, right? But then came the day of darkness. I woke up feeling icky, but had 2 tests at school and no sick days left at work, so I drug myself out of bed and forced myself to go. By the time I got to school, I'd gotten 3 rejection letters in my email. *started to feel kind of sad* I was pretty sure that I'd flunked both of my tests, and while waiting for another class to start, I got another rejection email. That's when the tears came. My throat was throbbing, both my ears were hurting, I was pretty sure that I had a fever, and on top of all that, I had FOUR rejections in one day. ALL THIS HAPPENED BEFORE 10 AM. I was crushed. But I went to work anyway, and when I broke down in tears in front of my boss, I was sent home to rest (to my intense relief (and mortification)). When I got home, I received ANOTHER rejection, and that was just IT. I took a big ole dose of cold medicine for my 101 degree fever and buried myself in my blankets, where I slept for five hours. When I woke to my husband bearing chicken soup and ginger ale, I checked my email once more to find another reply from an agent. I was CERTAIN that it was another rejection, but then I remembered: "HEY! This agent said that she only replies if she's interested in reading more!!!" I opened the email and sure enough, SHE WANTED TO READ MY BOOK. mmmmmmyyyyyyyyy bbbbbboooooookkkkkk!!!!!!!!!

(After popular demand) This was my face then:



Or maybe it was something more like this, since I still had a 101 fever:



So there you have it. After all that depression and anxiety and impatience, I received a manuscript request. I am still waiting to hear back from her, and of course my impatience has taken over again.

My face while I've been waiting:


And waiting:


And waiting:




And still waiting. But I know that there is some sort of light at the end of the tunnel, even if it ends in rejection too. If it does, I know that I need to re-evaluate my story and alter it as such. And my best friend keeps reminding me that Harry Potter and Twilight and such were all rejected multiple times, and that helps me keep my head up a little. :-) 

But to all of you out there who are waiting like me: I FEEL YOUR PAIN!!! I will keep you updated on my face as the rejections (and hopefully more requests!!!) keep flowing into my inbox. AND I am participating in NaNoWriMo for the first time, so I hope to have book two in the series complete by the end of the year! Who's doing it with me?? Have any of you experienced multiple rejection lately? I'd love to hear your comments so we can complain together! :-)

Saturday, October 8, 2011

WHAT QUERY LETTERS DO TO YOUR FACE


So I mentioned a few weeks ago that I finished the novel I've been working on for three years. This was what my face looked like that day:



After I went through and edited it, had a couple of people read over it and then edited it some more, then edited again one more time, I thought it was ready for agent querying. As you probably know if you are an aspiring author like me, getting an agent is basically like getting a passport; with it, you can have amazing adventures and go to all the places you've dreamt of going. But without it, no pasaporte, no entrada, and you're stuck in your dinky little hometown (i.e. my awful job as a bank teller)
So after I sent my query letter to my top five agents, I began to realize that the three hundred or so words I'd chosen to describe my novel might not have been GOOD ENOUGH. My face after hitting send:


Most publishing companies do not accept "unsolicited manuscripts", or in layman's terms, "the fantabulous story that you made up and want to get published, but didn't want to have to pay anyone to sell it for you". Literary agents are basically the gatekeepers of author's dreams. They take your work and help you tighten it and perfect it, then they send it off to the magical land of New York City, where book babies are born. But to GET a literary agent is HARD. Hundreds of people hit the "send" button to Ms. Agent at the exact same time you do, putting your query letter smack dab in the middle of the dreaded slush pile. But everyone must start somewhere right? You just have to have that one little spark (out of hundreds) that catches the agent's eye and makes him/her want to read more. So you can imagine my face when all my insecurities began to run wild and I began to seriously doubt myself. "WHAT IF I DON'T HAVE THAT SPARK??? MY LIFE WILL BE OVERRRRRRRR!!!!!" 


So far it's been 1 week, and I haven't heard a peep from any of the five agents I queried. Which in all honesty, is completely normal. Most agents say it can take them up to six/eight weeks to even GET to your query in their inbox, so it's quite possible none of the agents I queried have even read my pitch yet. But still. This is my face NOW.



So.... Yeah.... The waiting continues. I am completely, 100% terrified of what I have done. But I want more than anything to get published, and finding the right agent is the key to the magical door of that dream. Chasing your dreams is amazing. It's invigorating. It's fun. And most of all, it's SCARY. But I think fear is what makes it all worthwhile. If things like writing a book or diving out of an airplane were easy, nobody would dream of doing them, and therefore, nobody would dream. Here's to making our dreams come true, no matter how terrifying/nail-biting/ulcer-making/sleepless-night-causing they are. 

And meanwhile, every time I hear the "ping" sound that means I have a new email, my face looks like this:


Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Short Story: A BODY TO BURN



Humans are the smartest creatures on the planet, so surviving in the freezing cold couldn't be that hard. My body could adapt, right?I bit down on my lip, testing to see if I could still feel it. It was cold and tough between my teeth, but I could feel no sensation in the frozen skin. That had to be a bad sign. I shivered deeply as a strong gust of wind blew cotton ball-sized clumps of snow across my face, stinging my already numb nose.

“Are you still alive over there?” I asked Mitchell, who had grown a little too silent for my comfort.

He uttered a grunt in response.

“You know that whole, ‘snuggling to keep warm’ thing is not sounding too bad right now, eh?” I said playfully.

“There is no way in hell I would ever snuggle with you man,” he mumbled. “I’d rather freeze.”

I chuckled and blew into my hands in an attempt to warm them. There was really no use since my breath turned into icy crystals of fog the instant that it left my mouth. The snow was swirling around us so fiercely that it was impossible to tell the ground from the sky.

“I’m starting to think that this isn’t worth it,” Mitchell sighed, scrubbing his hands across his face. “Not even for one million dollars.”

“Speak for yourself,” I replied. “After I win this, I’m taking up permanent residence somewhere where it’s hot as fire year round.”

Mitchell groaned as another gust of wind roared through the trees, piercing our bodies like frozen shards of glass.
We shivered in unison for a while, our blood beginning to congeal in our veins. We were the last two contestants in a survival of the fittest contest—what a stupid idea. I jumped in surprise when Mitchell suddenly nudged me in the ribs with his elbow. I turned to him to protest, but the look on his face stopped me.

“Do you see that?” he asked, pointing a shaking, blue finger in front of him.

I peered through the falling snow in the direction that Mitchell was looking, but didn’t see anything.

“You mean that hot girl carrying coffee and parkas?” I teased him, trying to ignore the ache that enveloped my body. 

“I’ve heard that insanity makes you hallucinate.”

“Seriously, Adam,” he said eagerly, standing up from his perch on the log that we were sitting on. “What is that?”

I squinted, trying to make my vision clearer. I saw it; there was a light reflecting off of the snow. The roar of the wind grew louder at that moment, and I marveled at how it was possible for air to make such a noise. But then I realized that it wasn't the wind yelling at us; it was a helicopter. Somebody was going to save us.

We both began flapping our arms and screaming at the sky. We were going to be warm again. At that moment, I couldn't even remember what being warm felt like.

The trees were too thick for the helicopter to land, and I wondered how they were going to get to us. Then, through the blinding blankets of falling snow, I saw feet descending toward us. A small woman bundled in thick winter gear jumped to the ground from the helicopter’s rope ladder, landing nimbly on her feet.

“So there are still two of you,” she said, placing her hands on her hips. “Boss was afraid this would happen.”

“You’re here to save us, right?” I asked eagerly, no longer caring about the stupid contest. I just wanted to be lifted into that warm helicopter. I wanted her to save me from this cold. Mitchell took a step toward her, ready to hop onto the ladder as well, but she pushed her hand against his chest, stopping him in his tracks.

“No,” she said, shaking her head, the fur trim around her hood fluttering in the wind.
S
he pulled three objects from her jacket pocket and threw them onto the ground. They landed in the snow bank with a soft “whoosh”.  Mitchell and I stared down at them, not understanding. What did she mean, “no”?

She tapped her right foot in annoyance, nodding towards the items: a pack of matches, a tiny bottle of lighter fluid, and a long, carving knife.

“What are we supposed to do with these?” I asked, unable to keep my voice from shaking.

Her expression hardened. “There can be only be one survivor,” she said slowly, like she was afraid we would not understand. “Those are the rules. There has to be a body to burn.”

A body to burn?

“You have one hour,” the woman continued. “Whoever is successful must take the other body and set it on fire. Be sure that the body is coated completely in lighter fluid so it will burn beyond recognition. We will come get you when we see the fire. If neither of you succeed, you will both die.”

What kind of sick game was this?

She grabbed hold of the rope ladder and it quickly began pulling her back into the sky, the snow swirling around her as she climbed. Mitchell reached out to grab the ladder, but his almost-frozen limbs made him too clumsy to be fast. The woman disappeared in seconds, and we were left alone in the dark again.

I did not want to do it. But I had to survive. I had to. Mitchell dove into the snow to grab the supplies, but it was too late for him; I already had the knife.

 Later, as I warmed my hands in front of the blazing flames before me, I smiled. Humans could adapt to the cold, couldn’t they? I sure thought so.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

ALERT THE MASSES! MY NOVEL IS COMPLETE!



Today has been a very momentous day for me. I finished the novel that I have been working on for three years!!!! The concept of this book has been floating around in my head for quite some time, and has gone through several re-writes. But today, for the first time ever, I finished a NOVEL. I've had a love/hate relationship with theses characters for the past few months since they wanted me to finish their story, and I didn't have as much time to write as I liked. But I worked on it little by little, whenever I could, and I must say: if I can do it, anyone can do it. I am a full-time college senior, a part-time bank teller, and a wife. (my husband is watching the movie Anaconda in the background as I type this, BTW) I have basically no "time to write". But I loved it so much that I found time, and now I have a shiny new novel to show for it! It needs a ton of revisions of course, before I can query agents, but I HAVE A NOVEL!!! Sorry. I just can't get over saying that I HAVE WRITTEN A FULL LENGTH 65,000 WORD NOVEL. *cackles with joy*

Now it's time for me to disappear into the revision cave. 

BUT I HAVE A NOVEL! (Hee hee this will never get old)

Thursday, September 1, 2011

SWEETLY review


Today I finished two wonderful books: Sweetly by Jackson Pearce, and The Help by Kathryn Stockett. Both were wonderful in their own, unique ways (obviously they were totally different, one being a YA about werewolves and candy, and the other about racial complexities in 1960's Mississippi, but I loved them both). Today was a good day for me, since I usually don't finish more than one book in a day. But I was torn between wanting to finish them both ASAP, so I spent the past week going back and forth between the two, and both made me cry. I only cry when I really love something. This review is about Sweetly since it is a newer, less-read book, and I want to get the word out about how enchanting it is-- yes, that's right, I said ENCHANTING.

Jackson Pearce, the author of Sweetly, is the author of two other published books, As You Wish and Sisters Red. The latter is the first book in her fairy tale retelling series. Sweetly is not a sequel of Sisters Red, but a companion novel. There are some of the same elements in the two books that tie them to the same world, but you are fine if you haven't read one before the other. 

Sweetly is an imaginative retelling of the fable, Hansel and Gretel. Gretchen and Ansel are brother and sister whose family was torn to shreds the day that Gretchen's twin sister vanished in the forest behind their house while the trio was searching for the "witch" that lurked in the trees. The young siblings ran for the lives as they were chased by someone with yellow eyes, only to find when they got back home that Abigail, Gretchen's twin, was gone. 
After both of their parents eventually succumbed to the grief of the loss, teenaged Gretchen and Ansel find themselves searching for a new life on the opposite side of America, in an attempt to start over on the coast of North Carolina. Their Jeep breaks down in the small town of Live Oak, and Ansel takes a job as Sophia Kelley's handyman so he can pay for the repairs. 

Sophia is a young, beautiful woman who took over her father's chocolatier after he was brutally killed by wild animals. Gretchen and Ansel both soon become enamored with her, and they stay in Live Oak a little longer than originally intended. They move in with Sophia, who quickly becomes like a sister to the emotionally battered Gretchen. But Gretchin begins to wonder about the secrets Sophia is keeping from her after finding a hidden picture of Sophia and her unmentioned sister. Why would she not tell Gretchen about her missing sister when Gretchen herself had confided the long buried mystery of her own vanished twin sister?

Not to mention that almost every person in Live Oak blames Sophia for the eight girls that have gone missing after attending her annual chocolate festival. And then there are the sea shells that keep appearing on the front porch, which send Sophia into panic every time a new one shows up. Gretchen knows there is something strange going on, but her brother is falling in love with Sophia and she is just so darn charming that Gretchen can't help but love her too.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

How Writing A Book Is Like Falling Down





I am clumsy. I don't mean I bump into things every now and then, or drop things here and there. I am full-blown, Bella Swan clumsy. I laughed when I first read Twilight and saw the description of Bella's frequent injuries and mishaps. I was sure that Stephenie Meyer had been studying me when creating the character. Too bad I don't have a sparkly, hot guy watching me while I sleep, though (insert awkward pause, here). But I fall down and run into walls and trip and slip and drop things and let office chairs almost break my leg while sitting in them A LOT. Plus I'm fair skinned, so my bruises show up like spotlights in a country field at midnight. 

Anyway, I have been writing a book for the past two years. I can't quite get the ending right, but I am pretty much DONE with the book (well, the first draft, anyway). I have rewritten this thing at least four times, and I finally have gotten it where I want it to be. (You are probably wondering why in the heck I am using clumsiness as a metaphor for writing, but I'm getting there, I promise).

While writing this book, which happens to be my first novel, by the way, I have hit so many bumps along the way. I have wanted to write a novel since I was senior in high school, when I wrote my first children's book. Writing the children's book was hard (because it had to rhyme) but I wrote the first draft in about 5 hours, and the revisions only took about a week. That was nothing compared to writing this novel. I think my revisions will go a little smoother, but this first draft has just about KILLED me-- like the time I slipped and fell down this waterfall:



 AHA! I told you I would get there eventually! (And yes, that really did happen, but I walked away with only a few scratches and a REALLY nasty/cool bruise on my hipbone. I don't recommend trying to take a pretty photo on the slippery rocks of a waterfall, btw.)

I have walked along in my life falling and tripping and bruising until it became a routine thing for me. People knew when I was coming to watch out for me because we might both end up on the ground with a lump on the head, and not even know how it happened in the first place. This is what my writing has been like: a routine, falling-down-and-unable-to-get-up situation. I knew what I wanted to do, but I couldn't quite get there without ending up sprawled out on the floor with a new injury. 

The first draft was terribly sad. The main character's ex-boyfriend killed himself, all of her best friends, and tried to kill her, but she survived. She walked around in life sad and refusing to talk, but started seeing a boy in her dreams that eased her pain a little. I re-read and re-read this version of Wicked Illusions and tried to find a way to make it happier, but it depressed me. So I started over.

The second draft was told from a boy's POV instead of a girl's. The plot was basically the same except murder spree didn't happen to the boy, it happened to his cousin and he started dreaming of a girl who eased his pain. It was a little less depressing since he wasn't completely catatonic like the MC in the first draft, but it was still too sad, and too hard for me to write this particular story from a boy's POV. So I got up off the floor and started over again.

The third draft was a little closer to how Wicked Illusions is now, but still very different. I won't go into too much detail about it, but the plot was basically non-existent, and it was kind of boring and pointless. BUT I'd created this neat little creepy town that I really loved. And that was enough to spark a little nugget of a story and move on and start over AGAIN.

The fourth draft is what I am working on now, and it is better than ever. It still needs a lot of work, but it definitely has more potential than any of the other drafts.

But every time I started over and wrote a new draft, it was like falling down face first on a concrete floor. Pain and blood and bruising that left little marks on my skin (i.e. my ego) that left me crying and embarrassed. I didn't want to get up and let everybody see what a mess I'd made of myself. But the thing is, you HAVE TO GET UP. You can't just lay there in a pile shame and humility and let everyone point and laugh. 

Even if you make some awful mistakes and think that you can't drag yourself out of that hole you've just fallen into, you have to persevere and claw your way out. No mistake is permanent-- in writing, anyway. You can always hit the delete button and write something ten times better than before, just as you can pull yourself off of the floor, smooth your hair, say, "I meant to do that", then walk away dignified. 

Even if you hurt yourself (and it WILL hurt) along the way, put on a fresh bandage and keep going. Because falling down only teaches you to avoid that crack in the floor the next time you walk by it.

In case my metaphor isn't clear, because I tend to ramble sometimes: If your first draft sucks like mine did, delete delete delete until you get it right. You can do it! It just takes a lot of practice. Gracefulness must be earned in many aspects of life, like writing-- and walking, for people like me and Bella Swan.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Flying Squirrels





Whoa, it's been more than two months since I've posted a blog! I have been spending all my free time trying to finish the first draft of my novel before school starts back in a few weeks. I am happy to say that I am down to the last 10,000 words or so, and I am ITCHING to get this thing done. So many people have basically laughed in my face when I told them that I wanted to be an author, and I want to prove them WRONG. Like one day, I went to the doctor for a stomach virus, and as he poked and prodded my abdomen, he asked what I was going to school for. I told him creative writing because I am going to be a novelist. (I have stopped saying "want to be a novelist" and have switched to "going to be a novelist". Because, you know, I just AM) Anyway, this doctor chuckled at my mention of writing books for a living, and said, "So what are you planning to do when that doesn't work out?"

I am completely aware that becoming a successful novelist is rare, and that it is a long, grueling, make-you-wanna-pluck-out-your-eyeballs process to write a book and have it sold to a publisher. And I'm also aware that even if a book does sell, it might not hit it off with the general public. The only people that may buy it in stores are my mom, sister, and few friends. But I'm okay with that. Writing is what I love. And do you think I am going to invest years of time and sweat and tears into something that I haven't researched??? Probably not. Hey doctor, did anybody laugh at you and ask you what you were going to do when med school didn't work out? Probably not. So back off and give me some anti-nausea medicine, already. 

Anyway, I know I've said it in my posts before that you shouldn't let other people negatively influence your dream, no matter what it is, I will say it again: DON'T FALTER. Especially if you tell people that you are going to do something crazy like write books or become a singer or cure cancer or eat the world's largest meatball, people are going to roll their eyes and laugh at you like you are a silly little dreamer with no sense of reality. But that's because the majority of the population are like lemmings. They follow what the person beside them does and try not to stand out any way that might make them seem different. But guess what? You ARE different. You ARE special. Make that person feel like they aren't cool for being different instead of the other way around. 

I so didn't mean for this post to become so long. It was meant to be a fun story about my experiences with flying squirrels (yes, experienceS. They follow me), but my frustration with the world for being mean to creative people spilled out a little, and it's hard to stop it once it starts. So after the page break, I will leave you with some funny stories. :-) (I'm telling you, my life is weirdo. Craziness stalks me)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Tornado Relief


I am from Alabama, so naturally, I am an enormous Alabama Football fan (ROLL TIDE!!!). Example:

(Me at Bryant Denny Stadium)

A few weeks ago, a gigantic tornado tore through Tuscaloosa. Example:


Unfortunately, many people lost their businesses, homes, and loved ones. A big chunk of the wonderful college town that I once knew now looks like this:




Tuscaloosa will be dealing with ramifications of this terrible storm for years to come. If you would like to donate to help out, please click here to visit the Red Cross Disaster Relief Website.  Or you can text "Red Cross" to 90999, and a one time donation of $10 will be added to your cell phone bill. In the meantime, I give you an awesome of cover of Coldplay's, "Fix You"- by Little Big Town. They sang this during Music Builds: The CMT Disaster Relief Concert, and I have to share it. They ROCKED it. Or beautified it. Whatever you want to call it, it was awesome.



*Note- Tuscaloosa was not the only town affected by this particular band of storms, but it was considered to have been hit the hardest. My heart goes out to anyone who lost anyone or anything, and I send well wishes your way.


    Monday, May 16, 2011

    Book Reviews!

     Words.  Words are only a combination of letters and symbols.  It seems simple, right? But without words, we wouldn't have our language.  We wouldn't have names.  We wouldn't have books.  Words are important.  
     
    Books have always been my way of being able to travel to another city, or country, even another world without actually having to leave my house.  The right combination of words can make characters jump right off the page.  Good authors have you wrapped up in the story and loving or hating their characters within seconds of opening the book.  It's amazing how you can fall in love with someone without actually having met them face to face. (Edward Cullen, anyone?)  But the greatest thing is, you get to know what they are thinking at all times.  Haven't we all said at one point or another in our lives that we would love to know what everyone is thinking right now?  Well when you read, you get to do just that. 
     
    Books can be so engrossing, so utterly enthralling, that they can suck you in so incredibly deep that you refuse to put it down until you finish.  When you can't stop reading while you cook, or while you shower, or while you eat; it blows me away that a person can create a world so intensely interesting that you can't live until you make sure that the character is going to be okay in his or her own life first.
     
    I learn something new every time I pick up a new book.  Whether it be a word that I have never heard before, or a town that I have never visited, or a culture that I never knew anything about, reading will ALWAYS teach me something.  So I have decided that whenever I read a new book, I will write a short review and then tell you what that book taught me.  I am big fan of YA paranormal (since that is the type of book that I am writing), but I read all genres.  I look forward to sharing my journeys with you, and hope that it inspires you to go buy a book and learn something!

    Thursday, May 5, 2011

    Beauty and The Beast Retelling

    I have decided to post a short story every month to keep my creative juices flowing when I start to get burned out on my novel-in-progress. This particular one is not exactly short (it's almost 2000 words), but I have a soft spot for it. One of my favorite childhood movies was Beauty And The Beast-- i still know ALL the words to the songs, by the way-- so I wrote this story for a fairy tale retelling contest that I entered a few weeks ago. Hope you enjoy!



    Scarred


     
    My father will not let me be beautiful. 
      "Beauty is for silly girls," he says. "Beauty only causes pain to others."
      I avoid my reflection in the mirror as the familiar burn of embarrassment turns my cheeks a shameful red. My hair falls over my face and I let it stay there; the less of my face that anyone sees, the better. I know that that he relishes in the fact that I will never be beautiful. The doctors said they could fix my skin. They said they could turn the thick, leathery scars that covered my face and arms into skin that I could be proud of again. 

    Tuesday, May 3, 2011

    Pimping Maggie

    So as I have said before, Maggie Stiefvater is my favorite author. If you have never heard of her, where the heck have you been???? She is the Best Selling New York Times author of Lament, Ballad, Shiver, Linger, and a myriad of other books yet to be published. Shiver and Linger are part of the Wolves of Mercy Falls trilogy, and the third installment, Forever, is due to be released on July 12th, 2011. Maggie is not only an author that can make a reader's heart bleed with her beautiful descriptions, but she is also an accomplished artist and musician. Here is proof:
    And yes. Maggie designed and hand cut ALL of that paper. Plus she shot the video (using stop motion animation). Plus she wrote and recorded the music in the background. Impressed yet? (Don't make me add another "plus").

    To pre-order an autographed copy of Forever (or any of her other amazing books), click here. To go to the Wolves Of Mercy Falls website, click here. And if you want to be entertained by Maggie's quirky sense of humor, click here -- Even when she is trying to be serious, she will make you spew coke from your nose.

    Oh in case I forgot to mention it before, Maggie rocks. She just does. 

    Tuesday, April 19, 2011

    "People Don't Talk In Contractions"

    The past two weeks for me have been filled with excitement, disappointment, tears, and smiles. Thanks to the wonderful Maggie Stiefvater, I had my first experience with someone critiquing my novel-to-be. As Maggie and many other authors point out, it is best to have another writer or avid reader to read your work before sending it out to agents or editors. Most authors these days have a critique group, usually made up of one or two other authors. So I asked Maggie on her live journal how she came by her two critique partners, and in response, she set up a post so that other writers that read her blog could find a critique partner or two.
    And so began the heart breaking process. I have barely even talked about the plot to my mostly-finished novel because I wanted to know exactly where I was going before I told anyone what it was about. But I was certainly not going to let this opportunity slip through my fingers. So I typed up a little short paragraph about what the main idea of my story was, and waited to be requested as a possible-future-critique-partner.
    That day, I had never been so excited in my life. I received ten emails from other aspiring writers who wanted to read my work! People actually thought my story sounded interesting! So I polished my little baby and sent it's first 50 pages out into the world. No one had ever read my private work, and I was SCARED. I knew that there were some grammar mistakes here and there, and I knew that my main character needed to be a little more unique, but I thought the main thing in itself was pretty good for a first draft.

    Saturday, April 9, 2011

    Reality TV

    *Reader Warning* - If you enjoy any show with word "housewives" in the title, then this post will most likely piss you off. You were warned.

    I have a question for the world today: Why does anyone watch reality television? No scratch that: it should be titled "reality" television, with quotes around the word. Because there is absolutely nothing REAL about it. I get the premise of it. I mean it's neat to be able to see how other people around the world live. It's cool to be able to see inside rich people's houses. But it ends there for me. 

    Most of these "reality" shows are only about fame seeking, fake careers and the idiotic people that chase those dreams. Don't get me wrong, I would love to one day have my name printed on a book jacket that everyone has on their bookshelves. I would be ecstatic for people to point at me and whisper, "Hey, I think that is Stefanie Jones. She wrote that book that I read over and over and worship in my basement with secret candlelit rituals every full moon." (Okay, maybe that's a bit extreme, but you KNOW those people are out there. *shudders*) But I wouldn't invite strangers with cameras into my home and pretend to do things like sleep with my best friend's boyfriend just so that I could achieve that dream. 

    Since the "Housewives" shows seem to be so popular, I decided to sit down one day and give one of them a try when I came across a marathon on Bravo. I thought, "This might be funny. Maybe I'm thinking about these shows in the wrong light. Maybe these women actually have some depth that I've somehow missed." Yeah.... My husband had to listen to me rant for three hours after watching approximately two minutes of the show...

    Tuesday, March 29, 2011

    Is It Just Me?


    Is it just me, or is the final book in a series never as good as the rest?  I have noticed a pattern with the last few series books that I have read lately; I have felt empty after reading the final book of the series -almost EVERY series that I have ever read. As of late, I have read; The Forest of Hands and Teeth trilogy by Carrie Ryan, The Hunger Games trilogy by Suzanne Collins, and don't even get me started on the whole disgusting baby love thing in Breaking Dawn, of the Twilight series. Every one of these series started out great.  The authors (whom I love and will continue to eagerly await their next books) had prose that wouldn't leave my mind for weeks afterwards. These were books that I couldn't put down even if i tried.  I would read each book in a day or two, then I would sit rocking in the corner, clutching my dignity as I waited for the next installment to come out. As each series came to a close, I would hungrily devour the final book just as quickly as I had the previous books.  But for some reason, I didn't feel the same after finishing it.  Sure, I would love more stories told from the points of view of Mary, Gabry, Annah, Katniss, and Bella (and EDWARD of course), but I have never felt the urge to read a final book more than once.  I don't think I have everread the end of a series more than once.

    Do I feel this way because deep down I am sad that it is truly over -that I will never hear that character's thoughts again? Or is it because all of the ends of these series were conflicted with war and death and sadness? Is it because the end of a book series is like the end of a relationship? (I mean, you have to come to love these characters, and suddenly they just break it off???) Or is it simply because many authors, no matter how great they are, cannot figure out how to write an ending that will satisfy everyone?  I don't know.  Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows was the ONLY book out of a series that I have read so far where I was completely satisfied with the entire book (Take note from J.K. Rowling, self).  Maggie Stiefvater is my FAVORITE author, and her third and final book in The Wolves Of Mercy Falls trilogy comes out this summer.  I have high hopes for her, as she always seems to know the right thing to say.  But my question is, am I the only one who hates endings?  Everything has to come to an end at some point, and maybe that's why I have rarely liked a final story;  I DON'T WANT IT TO END *huddles into my corner and cries, clutching my battered copies of Shiver and Linger*.

    Thoughts? Comments?

      Monday, March 7, 2011

      LOVE

      I recently got this tattoo on my foot:

       
      (Yes, I am aware that my feet are translucently pale)

      It was my first tattoo (and most likely, my only; though, I feel that if I ever get a book published I will probably want to get a tiny one somewhere to commemorate it).  But when people ask me why I got that particular tattoo, I want to tell them the real reason.  But it takes a while for me to be able to explain it fully.  So I usually just tell them that it stands for my love for my husband and my family (which is true), and that I drew it up and thought it was pretty (which is also true).  But my real reason for getting the word "love" permanently engraved into my skin is this: the world revolves around love.
       
      If you stop and think about it, love is all around us.  Almost every song out there, from country music to rap music, is about love.  They are about falling in love for the first time, or falling in love for the umpteenth time.  They are about having your heart ripped out, or having your heart repaired by a new love.  All movies have to have some sort of love plot, or people will lose interest.  Even in the most gruesome horror stories, love plays some part in the plot line. Most books are completely about love.  I have heard several authors joke, "kissing sells books".  And it does! Because everybody wants to play a part in love, whether it's their own or someone else's.   
       
      And there are so many different types of love, how could you resist?  We are built for love.  There is the love you have for your significant other, the love you have for you parents, the love you have for your children, the love you have for your friends, and even the love you have for worship.  All of these are different unto their own, but we crave it.  We live for it.  If you were to find one person in this world that doesn't feel some type of love, you will be looking at a dead person.
       
      I think it is beautiful that this one emotion can cause so much ecstasy, anger, frustration, happiness, and utter thankfulness.  So all in all, I love - LOVE.  Love can make you feel like nothing else in this world, like nobody is more special, like nothing could be better than what you are feeling right at that moment.  And who doesn't want that?